I’m getting properly back on track now and although I wasn’t 100% on plan (more like 85%, I’d say), I weighed in 1lb lighter than I was last week, which has spurred me on and I’m determined to do really well this week!
Despite the dismal weather, I found an excuse to get on my bike to pick up a few things from the shops, and I have promised my eldest son that if he can start and stop on his bike without help, and the weather gets a little better, I’ll take him for a bike ride on Sunday this weekend. I would take him on Saturday, but it’s his birthday party that day (which means loads of tempting party food will be made, so I’ll have to include a few healthy options too!).
I am finding that I miss my gym membership, but I had to admit I wasn’t getting to the gym anywhere near as often as I wanted and certainly not as often as to make it worth my while paying a monthly fee, so it had to go, as it was like taking £40 out of my bank account every month and just setting fire to it. It was £40 a month that could be put to better use, and buying a second hand bike with it has been the best move ever. I used to hate cycling, and never used my bike when I had one before (which I had bought new, 12 years ago, for over £250!), but now I absolutely love it! Who would have expected that?
We also had a busy weekend, as I was singing at a local event. Although I got loads of compliments and very positive comments, I have hated every single photo I’ve seen of myself from that weekend. Other people have told me I look fine, but I just see a bloated balloon and it’s hit me how much further I still have to go before I’ll be happy with my appearance. I can acknowledge that it’s an improvement on this time last year, or even on how I looked when I sang there back in May, but it’s still awful to feel so unhappy with my body.
However, I won’t let it get me down – I will use it to fuel my continuing weight loss, and reaffirm my dedication to the Slimming World programme. There are fourteen weigh-ins between now and Xmas, so I could be a stone lighter by then. I fully intend to hit that target, and then get to target (another two stones on top of that) by the summer. I can do it. I know I can! I WILL!